Certainty

Monday December 4, 2006 at 11:18pm funerals, family, reflection Comments (0) »

I'm currently sitting in a room at the Holiday Inn Express at exit 38 on I-75 in Ohio.

My grandfather (on my mom's side) passed away sometime last friday. I'm up here with most of the rest of the family for his funeral.

Grandpa's condition had been steadily worsening for several years - especially within the last few months - so this was pretty expected, and probably for the best given his situation. Still, it's sad to lose someone.

This is the first funeral I've been to in... ...a very long time. I don't exactly remember how long. I've been to a couple of viewings since, but...

Unfortunately, I hadn't seen him much over the last several years and, since his health began to decline, even less frequently. Still, even though I've been fairly disconnected from him for that stretch of time, he is still the closest person to me who has now died.

This has again brought to mind thoughts about how well I will be able to handle death around me - with just a little more urgency. Just a little more close-to-home. I've not had anyone who is very close to me pass away yet - and I sincerely hope I won't for a long time to come - still, that is something of an inevitable circumstance. I hope i'm ready for it when it happens.

It has been nice to see friends and relatives that I haven't seen for a long time though. Wish we had a more cheerful reason to gather.

~PS

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